Hung in the Middle: A Journey of Gender Discovery by Alana Nicole Sholar @Alana_Sholar
At the young age of 8-years old, Alana Nicole Sholar (born as Alan in Kentucky in 1961) realized something was ‘wrong.’ However, the word ‘transgender’ is NOT a household word in Kentucky.
Alan lived and worked on some of Kentucky’s now-famous thoroughbred farms (where he even trained to become a jockey), while hiding, and running from, the secret within — struggling with his difference well into his mid-30’s before he became aware there were others like him.
Determined to hide the struggle within, Alan is a fast driving, hard drinking, pill popping guitar player with a sex addiction that leads to multiple partner encounters and the consequences.
On the way to becoming Alana, with the first step being a legal name change in 2005, she imagines what it must be like to be with a man. When the opportunity presents itself she struggles with making a decision to do something that, once done, could never be undone.
Much more than just a story of gender discovery, which is powerful in and of itself, “Hung in the Middle” is a story of triumph over life’s challenges. Although the challenges may differ, Alana’s story is an encouraging resource for anyone traveling their own personal journey of self-discovery . . . and we ALL seek to discover ‘self.’
Chapter 1, Alana’s ‘Interview with the Author’ video, and more at HungInTheMiddle.com
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About the author:
Alana has one son from a previous marriage, and is a grandparent. She and her spouse, Bobbie, still live in the same small Kentucky town where Alana grew up as a male.
What inspired you to write your book?
When I lost my job in 2009 I had lots of time on my hands. One day I sat down at the computer and just started writing ‘memories.’ Those memories became “Hung in the Middle: A Journey of Gender Discovery.”
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